Yipes!!!

Sorry, I seemed to have stalled out a bit. The end of the semester is a crunch and we mount a new show on Jan. 4th so things are pretty crunched getting into Christmas break.

Which reminds me.

A good friend was going to CN on business and he was kind enough to drop by some Christmas presents to our son. We actually sent some to the two other older boys as well, so as not to tip our hand. I am attaching some pictures.

About a month ago, YY started figuring out that we were in the process of adopting again. It has been a strange little journey. I wasn't sure if his mind was trying to blend out the fact that we haven't always been with him, but in the last month he has been secure enough to bring it up from time to time. (Not that it has affected his bonding to us. We are bonded supa tight! )

So he started asking about the process. He wants a brother and a sister. He has been excited to talk about bunk beds and sharing his toys. He is so excited.

And then, of course, he figured out it was FX last week. He could hardly be contained. He told me at dinner one night, "FX is going to be my brother and it is all because of me."

I said yes and laughed it off.

I'm not sure that I am laughing anymore. This past week it has become more and more evident to me that it is all because of him. We would never had considered FX without having been changed by YY. We never would have known that FX even existed without YY.

We debated the pros and cons for YY if we did this and we weighed the options for him and FX as well. And in the end, the only reason we were given FX, could even find his paperwork, was because everybody was moved by their special friendship at BS. So, yes, YY. It is because of you or by way of you.

We write our own stories as we go along, but so often we don't really know the whole. We close the chapter and isolate the anecdote without seeing the larger narrative. I had no way to know that meeting son #1 would be God's way of introducing me to son #2 (who is actually, son #1. I guess the first will really be last this time!)

YY prays for FX every night, and at every meal. And he asks me everyday if he can pray for a sister too. I keep telling him that we have to get FX home and settled first, but he says he will still pray anyway.

Why did I teach him about praying so early? We are so hosed.